rants.

2007-12-15T23:30:00.000+08:00

moved. using the same tagboard. ask me for link. ME. dont ask people. people i gave my link to you better stfu. thanks.

2007-12-15T01:19:00.000+08:00

i was talking to that jiaxin previously about milo i think. and guess what she suddenly did.

Chinjiaxin :] The silence of the universe. says:
taaaau, wanna join CHINJIAXIN'S FARM/TREE? (:
yingxin we got along until you did that says:
WHATTT
Chinjiaxin :] The silence of the universe. says:
HAHAHAHA.
Chinjiaxin :] The silence of the universe. says:
wait.
Chinjiaxin :] The silence of the universe. says:
ttyl.
Chinjiaxin :] The silence of the universe. says:
i shall go blog first.
yingxin we got along until you did that says:
why is it chinjiaxin's
yingxin we got along until you did that says:
haha
yingxin we got along until you did that says:
i should make something called taugay's vegetable farm

2007-12-14T19:56:00.000+08:00

registration- RM65
about 7 mqs- RM 560
graded masters if i qualify- RM220
food everyday- RM250
total- RM1095.

ROFLMFAO. im only given 500 sing. which would be about RM1150. i bet you im not gonna have enough money. cause if so happen i qualify for open masters. which wont happen. but if it happens. LOL. fucking dead. i wont end up playing masters. i'll just be a qualifier. FUCK IT. why cant i be rich.

maybe my parents will give me more money if i spent less on accomodation. i would spend less if... nevermind. fuck it. im gonna make sure next year my everything is settled and CONFIRMED. and im gonna make my roommate separate a fund and so even if someone pangsehs the other wont lose so damn badly. either that or i'll get someone more trustworthy. i wont make the same fucking mistake all over again.

2007-12-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

IM GONNA WRITE THIS POST. 2 SHOUTOUTS ONLY.

GERALDTAN(:
hey you. haha. here's the DEMANDED shoutout. haha. so. thanks for the few months of friendship. haha. i still remember what you did a few years ago. but heck. you were still 'YOUNG'. HAHAHA. ohwells. and the first time you talked to me this year. super retarded. haha. some people. grow up so fast. hahaha. ohwells. haha. see you tomorrow i guess. i got nothing to write now luh. haha. can i stop here. yay i shall. i need to write nick's. you ask me for shoutout you never say how long. okay. BYE GERALD! thanks for the favor at milo. takecare<3

NICKLIMGAYGAY(:
HAHAHA. i just came up with that name. i dont know why. hahaha. okay it sounds damn funny. anyway. you're leaving for milo tomorrow. haha. i just wanna say thanks for being my daily entertainment. haha. your contagious HEHEHE. and i can say you're funnier than ladoo shop. haha. grats on cats. i'll see you at milo. better dont dao me ah. i'll hardly hang out with that guy on top. I TOLD YOU WHY. haha. either i hang out with you or nicgohmeini man. haha. and nic is uhm. HAHAH. kidding. i hope she doesnt see this. i bet she didnt even see my previous shoutout man. haha. ohwells. and yeah. it was fun disturbing people. (: OH LOOKIE. familiar face. <--. haha. this. -> (: HAHAHA. okay anyway. bye NICK! takecare. have fun while it lasts. before an idiot goes. ME! <3

2007-12-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

ohwells. im blogging cause im bored. went to rtc to bowl today. saw aunty geraldine and nelson again.

i was bowling on 7 and 8. the bloody idiots didnt oil the lane cause their silver bullet is spoilt. ZOMG. ball hooked like 20 boards?! ass.

woke up late today. was supposed to go out with gerald chartan and anthony. in the end i didnt go. yup.

ohwells. im bored. going to orchard tomorrow. denise is bowling at 1.30 tomorrow i think. all the best. you can do it. (: nick bowled today. zomg. he failed launch angle and ball speed. by 0.2 mph or something. sigh nick. its okay luh. they'll take you. your area bowling so zai.

anyway. im gonna make my milo checklist. i bet you i'll forget something man. hopefully not. if i forget my bowling ball i'll just faint man. HAHA. it may happen. gosh. okay okay. gonna make my list now.

bye! (:

shoutouts:

dale
i really think that its my fault. and its better for you. cause im causing that much misery. till you dont even bother anymore. im sorry i asked you to come down and then it ended up in the problem. whatever it is. im sorry. and know what? no matter what. i dont know if you still wanna correct your bowling ball problem. but if you want to you can still drill it. you dont need to stop just cause we're not talking. and call me if you need any help or whatever. sorry for everything again. and sorry for pushing you to that extent that you want to give it up now anyway. takecare. bye.

2007-12-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh. i just realised i havent blogged. haha.

today i did NOTHING. haha. seriously nothing. a phonecall woke me up. the beginning. quite stupid.

person: "hello is this ong ying xin?"
me: *jumps out of bed thinking its sbf* "YA?"
person: "this is uncle philip."
me: " oh -.- "

sigh. see why i dont want that small sense of hope? horrible. haha. this is stupid.

anyway. was gonna msg denise to thank her for staying up yesterday. then. i got a msg. i went to read it first and it was from her. like. "TAUGAY! are you awake?" hahaha. damn zun.

milo is in 6 days and i SERIOUSLY hope im in the same bus as elaina or nic or BOTH (: im so gonna screw up. so yeah. whatever.

nothing much to say. gonna go christmas shopping tomorrow i think. either that or im going bowling. whatever im not doing tomorrow. im doing on friday. haha. im shopping for half or my gifts.

SHOUTOUTS (:

nicGOHMEINI (:
hey you. haha. my goodness. your csi thing. HORRIBLE. hahaha. i really hope im in the same bus as you mann. ): and you better come visit my room. im gonna be so bloody bored. no one believes that im rooming myself. LIKE I WANT TO. -.- whatever. anyway. YOU and AHEMM. haha. dont lie. so obvious luh please. haha. time to start admitting to scandals nic. haha. and of course photo is nice. i sent it. haha. nahh. then it would make it not nice. pretend i didnt send it. pretend AHEMM sent it. hahaha. love you nic! <3

DENISE (:
hey. haha. ohwells. im replying your shoutout. kinda? although there isnt much to reply. if there were more to reply. you'd finish posting at 1am. haha. KIDDING. anyway. thanks for being there. haha. the past few nights have been fun mann. and the 4 people game is even more fun. cause i can think of the coolest people. like HOCKSENG. and YEAH. some i cant name here. haha. eh please. i had to say more disgusting stuff too okay. ): anyway. dont need to get me anything. and im still trying to get more people. i'll TRY TO. no promises. haha. OMG. the song. okay nevermind. thanks again for the fun. and for talking to me man. i know. im here for you to rant to too. ANYTIME ANYWHERE. i love you denise! <3

CHARTAN (:
sigh sigh sigh. im not pissed. haha. thanks for getting yourself addicted to gossip girl. now i got an earful of complaints from TIGER. TIGGER. whatever. haha. shopping tomorrow or friday you still havent told me yet. sigh. haha. see you soon. thanks for clearing stuff out. at least you and gerald tried clearing it out with me. screw the assholes who didnt even bother. oh and michelle too. see you soon. love you char! <3

2007-12-12T20:10:00.000+08:00

yingxin ivegivenup says:
im watching criminal minds
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
haha okay
yingxin ivegivenup says:
GO WATCH IT
yingxin ivegivenup says:
its damn nice
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
SCARY!
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
NO
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
I'LL DIEEEE
yingxin ivegivenup says:
NO
yingxin ivegivenup says:
omg
yingxin ivegivenup says:
its like csi you idiot
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
i almost died watching grudge
yingxin ivegivenup says:
LOL ITS LIKE CSI
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
i was covering my face while watching csi!
yingxin ivegivenup says:
HOLY CRAP
yingxin ivegivenup says:
HAHAHAHA
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
THE FREAKING MURDERER
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
WAS SO FREAKING SADISTIC
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
AND SCARY
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
):

that girl is retarded i swear.

2007-12-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

went to raffles to bowl today. wheee.

saw jerrychia and fukuan there. and some weird guy. i finally managed to get my bag back. stupid security at the damn club. apparently jerry spoilt one lane. haha. bowled like crap as usual. then when i was leaving aunty geraldine came with nelson. haha.

went with misterpro to holland v to eat. at swensens. and freaking idiot paid for dinner again. then went to coldrock. and finally i paid for something. -.-

saw carrot. and NO. im serious. whatever you asked me. its no. haha.
she asked for misterpro's name. then i didnt realise she didnt ask for mine.
then when my order came up. they were like. taugay. i was like OMG CARROT?! and she was like HEEHEE. haha. nevermind. since that girl's a really nice friend to me i wont bother. haha.

i read the posts. and yeah i agree. as i said before. you're better off without me. how many god damn times do you want me to tell you. finally you give up. you're better off this way. i told you before. im an unreasonable bitch.

2007-12-11T14:19:00.000+08:00

thanks gerald and chartan for explaining to me.

eh gerald. heard about acsi. screw it. just do well in your bowling. screw the school. get people and go join agegroup together. thrash the aci team then. no point paying to get in.

haha. and i just found out. some people. wow. think they're damn great. haha. ant and i went to try clearing stuff up and some people left the convo. HAHAHAHA. assholes.

and michelle. im not pissed. omg. chartan. im not pissed too. okay! yay.

talked to denise chan on the phone till about 3+. then i went to play games and watch shows. slept at 6. WHEEE. i shall try out the advice she gave me.

for this whole week. im gonna go to rtc to bowl EVERYDAY. and get my bloody accuracy back. i cant keep having miss my target. its bloody stupid. and to actually play lines. and not instinct shots. ohwells. just hope i qualify for milo.

yesterday went to bowl at rtc with lester. sorry. i was late again. omg that guy's making me feel damn bad. he had headache still go bowl cause he promised. wheee. at least he's not a pangseher. haha. then i bowled with him. and again he paid for my mq. -.- then we left. he gave me a lift back but on the way he said he's hungry and i was quite too. so we went to eat supper. then he sent me back. and he's meeting me again today. haha. sorry luh. i really dont wanna go spgg man.

anyways. anyone wanna play league? im gonna grab people and join league somewhere. i need income man.

2007-12-10T16:16:00.000+08:00

you screw with my friends you screw with me. what fucking rubbish.
so much for " lets go shopping on monday ". oh what day is it today? MONDAY.
why? am i such an embarrassment cause im a lousy fugly hopeless bowler. yeah i think so. thanks. i noticed.

and thanks for not calling anthony too. what has he got to do with anything.
and now. when i try to call you guys dont pick up. or at least the people i wanna call dont pick up. great.

you give a fucked reason that because it was only 4 people at first. he'll be extra
"gerald and chartan"
"daryl and adeline"

oh my fucking hell. i understand the first two. but the last two? WHAT MOTHERFUCKINGBULLSHIT. and now michelle's there right. soo. whats that about saying its extra again?

and what the bullshit about him having no money. hello. we're talking about anthony wee here you know. even if he has no money at least have the courtesy to ask him out right. if he has no money think he'll be thickskin and go and make you pay. wtf. first you dao his calls.

then you dao mine. WELL DONE. why. cause i think you realised that i know now that its not only gerald and daryl. cause i called charlene. then i called gerald. then i called michelle. smart. well done.

~~ACDDGMT~~ ACDDGM
p.s. anthony is out. that a isnt him.

2007-12-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

fuck. im fucking stupid. fucking lousy. i swear. im gonna quit bowling. i wanna quit. i seriously do. whats the damn ass point. im like some fucktard who went for rolloffs and wasted time.

i hate it when im in and i bowl like fuck after. and blow my fucking chance. ka told me to talk to one of the coaches. i did. and seriously. i wasted both theirs and my time. i bet they dont even know who the fuck i am. like duh. i have nothing to my name okay. fuck this crap.

whatever. grats to the people who got in. especially anthony denise darsh and audrey. grats. you all deserve it. really.

anyway. i think im bloody extra. i really am. im from like totally different worlds. im on the poor side. duh. maybe things would be better if i had more money to train. but then again. im just lousy. so fuck it.

2007-12-08T22:05:00.000+08:00

ZOHMYGOD.

145 129 175 223 172 180 201 191.

im stuck on the same lane with cedric. haha.

1st 2 games we bowled with raymond see and i forgot who.
next 2 games with daryl ong and some malay spinner
next 3 games with brenton and leon ho
next 4 with anthony and some guy called jack toh or something.

MY GOSH. i counted. bloody fookie nehneh. if i dont bowl a 145 and 129. my avg is a 190.3333333... AHHHHH WHYY!! why cant i bowl a 14 and 14. even that is a 180 avg. not the 177 that i got. ):

i think i cant get in. i got the shock of my life. went there and saw like. SO MANY GIRLS PLAYING. and all so bloody pro. like. lesleylow, denise, anthea, edlyn[she told me she wants to quit bowling -.-], darshini, nicholettegohmeini, viclim, stephanietay, ongshena, i cant remember. i counted 14. plus the existing ones who bowled damn well in the first squad. OUT OUT OUT. ):

sigh. haha. i kinda got ignored today. i hope i didnt do anything wrong. sorry if i did. =/

by the way. thanks to lester low for coming down man. my god. i needa bowl a 183 avg at least tomorrow. so i dont owe him lunch. and so i dont owe audrey lunch. haha. everyone's trying to rip me off man. and mich hwang just came to me and say i owe her lunch. what on earth for man. hahaha.

time to fail tomorrow ): BADLY.

shoutouts:

AUDREY: hey you. haha. thanks for coming to talk to me. when i was bloody bored. and for the encouragements. yup. see you soon. haha.

MICHELLE: hey. haha. thanks for coming with us for lunch. haha. the princessy michelle finally ate at a hawker center. haha. see you tomorrow. oh yeah. thanks for helping me buy water too. i barely drank one bottle =/ opps. haha.

CHARTAN: hey. haha. thanks to you. for helping me buy bubble tea. with milk. HAHA. anyway. thanks. its quite nice. thank god. see you tomorrow i guess. if you're going.. and thanks for pinching me twice. PAIN AH. kns. haha.

2007-12-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

ohwells. went to uncle richard's shop today. got everything fixed. yup. ade came down to get her ball checked and everything. she may buy nvs. haha. ohwells.

headed down to rtc after. to bowl with lester. haha. omg. im super sorry man. was supposed to meet at 5 and i reached at like what? 6.30? dammit. anyway. bowled with the pro. played 1 mq i think. and 1 game. haha. damn lousy. tried out my new shoe.

fugg. i got the same shoe as him. i thought uncle richard was ordering the older model of sst6. he got me the new one. same as that !@#$%^&*.

2007-12-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

ohwells. just came back. long long long day man.

went down to mf to bowl. my god. i swear i hate people who steal cabs luh. no manners. freak i was standing there with 60 pounds of stuff. and then stupid people steal my cab. UNDER THE RAIN. then i thought i was gonna be late. reached at 10.15. supposed to meet at 10. guess what. oh im earliest again. thanks man. nick and cheryl again. ahha -.-

bowled quite a few games. anthony paid. thanks dude. (: then we waited for chartan to finish her training. then michelle decided to follow.

went to vivo. ate at carls jr. worst place ever. then went to watch golden compass. not bad luh. but quite stupid. theres a part 2. dammit. anyway. wee paid again. omg. i so owe you alot of money mann.

went to buy stuff. then headed back to mf in michelle's dad's coolios car. my god my back nearly died. haha. anyway. grabbed my bowling bag and headed to uncle richard's shop. thank god i went later. i heard someone was there before and i also heard someone's gonna be there at selections. i hope i dont bowl with him. PLEASE NO. ):

anywayy. played there quite abit. followed nick and brent to the famous famous restaurant they keep talking about. 'eleven'. MY GOSH THE FREAKING FOOD IS DAMN BLOODY NICE. !!!!!!!!!. im going there again to eat. soon.

went back and played daidi for a while. then yeah. left. went home. stoning.

im sorry man. i swear i didnt know. thanks for telling me how you felt.

and thanks nick. for bringing me there. dont worry. i'll credit you. like oh. nick showed me the place. yeah. okay.

2007-12-06T00:53:00.000+08:00

WHEEEE

faber tomorrow. at 10. with cheryl. haha. gonna bowl. then i think wee gerald and chartan and myself are going vivo. im trying to make nick go now. haha. and nic goh's gonna be there at 12. yup (:

lesterlow is another denisechan. gosh. and im tempted to join nsrcc. but all the pro people are there. waste my time. and i got no money man ):

wtf. you know what lousy deal lester low gave me.
1stdayofselections: if i hit below 170 avg i owe him lunch.
2nddayofselections: if i hit below 190 avg i owe him lunch, 2 bottles of gummies and i forgot what. OMG.

and best part. he asked denise if she agrees i can do it and she said yes. dammit. he gets free food please. if i hit 120 im happy man.

2007-12-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

yeah. im going to mf by myself i think. how fucking stupid. maybe i wont even go. and uncle richard say i can go down to his shop tomorrow but i doubt has time to help me with things. so i dont even think i should go. and i dont wanna go and see some people who hate me for stupid reasons that are not even my fault. ohwells.

standing on the rooftop

2007-12-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

it's not you. its just me. and i really dont know okay. im sorry. just forget me. really. life's better without me. FOR EVERYONE. gosh.

species: ongyingxin
occupation: failure
characteristics:
10% loser
10% loner
10% annoying
10% stupid
10% pissing
10% disturbing
10% infamous
10% contagious unpopularity
10% hopeless
10% irritating.

there we go. 100% of pure reasons why you should stay away from me.

anyway. if lester low ever reads my blog. you better dont go down to watch selections. above is 100% why you'll be wasting your time. ohwells.

i wanna go to faber to practice tomorrow before i go to uncle richard's shop. who volunteers to go. please tell me no one.

tell me what the fuck is wrong... with me.

2007-12-05T01:55:00.000+08:00

okay i give up talking to you. im sorry man. i guess i pissed you off again today. i shouldnt have told you even if you asked what happened. and no matter what. i guess you do think that im annoying. and im really sorry. i told you to tell me if i am. i guess you just dont want to. and its your choice. yeah. im just really sorry okay. and thanks for being there for me. and trying to comfort me at aia. cheering me up and all. i really appreciated it. and thanks for the fun while it lasted. i guess when it comes to me. fun never lasts long. thanks.

i think you think that im trying to spoil your friendship with her. no im not trying to. i hope you and her are good friends again. in fact i think you are. then you can be happy again. like before. and cause i think im the one who spoilt your friendship. i think shes happier not talking to me. and you will be too. so yeah. again. im sorry.

i guess the outing at milo's off. and i know you'll be like others. thank god she's in sec 4. yeah. dont worry. even if i fail o's. i'll be a dropout. i wont go back and cause misery.

to _. leave me alone for a while. im sorry. i just cant talk to you now. i dont want to end the friendship. which is why. im not talking to you now. screw what ant says. he can scold me for all he wants. im sorry but yeah. give me some time.

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me!

2007-12-04T19:45:00.000+08:00

yeah man. new fav song. given up by linkin park. whoots.

Waking to sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me!

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventalate.
Looking for hope somehow somewhere
And noone cares

I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me!

GOD!

Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my misery
Put me out of my...
Put me out of my fucking misery!

I've given up...
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating!
Tell me what the fuck is
Wrong with me!

2007-12-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

ohwells. yes i agree. everyone will be happier without me. so why not you dont die. i go die. yeah. i can name hell alot of people who will be happier without me. my family members. people who hate me. and celine mok. yeah.

since you said that because of the issue between both of us. and that you dont know what to do. you dont mind dying. you'll be happier with god. how about i die. then the world will be more peaceful. yeah. i really dont mind.

2007-12-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
eh aunty
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
have you been reading my blog?
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
yes
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
tsktsktsk
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
i bet you never
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
you sound terrible
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
AS IN
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
like in a terrible state
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
AS IN AS IN
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
SAD.
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
I GOT A SHOUTOUT FOR YOU YOU PIGGGGG
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
uhhuh
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
haha
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
omg wtf am i saying
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
what nice phrasing gohmeini
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
HAHAHAHA SORRY!
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
OH REALLY
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
nah im fine. dont worry. its just me and my lousy handling of friendships
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
I SHALL GO SEE NOW
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
actually its combined. you elaina and greg
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
haha
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
thats not true. it takes two peolpe to keep things going
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
uhhuh
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
i doubt so
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
if one person keeps pissing the other one off. unintentionally. that being me
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
uhm
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
yeah
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
haha well BUT
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
those who matter dont care and those who care dont matter
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
YES. see! so logical right
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
WOW
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
nice
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
hahahahahah
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
omg.
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
thanks nicgohmeini <3
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
(:
yingxin i dont wanna waste another day says:
that sounds like its from some movie
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
HAHAHA
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
ITS QUOTED FROM STEPH. i didnt come up with it
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
i'm not that smart
nic I AM GORILLA <3 says:
HAHAA

haha. nice one. "those who matter dont care and those who care dont matter"

somehow i dont know if that's true. ohwells.

2007-12-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

ohwells. since i have nothing to do anyway. i shall write shoutouts to people.

adeline
hey. thanks loads again. im glad you kinda wanted to clear stuff up. and for calling me. and thanks for the concern that day. about whether you should still call considering i was in quite a bad mood that day. yeah. i dont know if i could say we're still back to normal. but thanks for popping by at raffles that day to get your bag. and yesterday. though i was already out. but heck. you coming was fun. and the movie and game at michelle's house. yup. i'll reply your letter soon. takecare <3

trix&brent
hey (: thanks loads once again for inviting me to your party man. i love the damn place. its so nice please. haha. and got to know quite a few people. and of course the eventful night. gosh. i've known you two for. 4 years? yeah. and wow. trix is done with her A's. gosh time's passing fast. ohwells. takecare. see you two soon <3

nick
yo gay bud. haha. thanks for lending me 10 bucks man. haha. and for the whole 2 days. wheee. anyway. party was fun. and yeah. omg. milo milo milo. blackjack!!!! haha. im gonna recoup losses okay. haha. and i still owe you a present for your birthday. haha. takecare nick. wow lesser. wow-ing is antisocial mann. haha. bye dude. <3

anthony
hey you. haha. ohwells. i guess i started talking to you quite abit at aia right? yeah. ohwells. thanks for the damn alot of fun at raffles and stuff. my gosh. i got another proded shit competitor at raffles ): haha. and thanks for entertaining me with alot of jokes and the talks. see you soon i guess. reminder. get a cloth for bowling. get a puffball. HAHA. you horrible thing man. takecare <3

nicholette&elaina&greg
HEY YOU(: haha. thanks you 3. for trying to get me on the same bus for milo. wheee. its gonna be a blast mann. and thanks greg. im soooo a spare tyre please. i should not blog it here. hmph. i'll remember it. ahhaah. and nic goh. MUST GO EAT XIAOLONGBAO KAYY. with elaina. or was she the one who says she doesnt know what it is. ahha. wait. no. i dont think thats her. okay gogogo (: takecare people. <3

denise
thanks for your apology. and for that session on msn. yeah. now i kinda know. and i should be the sorry one. whatever it is. thnks fr th mmrs (: . and all the best for ny selections.

i think im done with shoutouts. OH YEAH. takecare keith. hope you're fully recovered now.

anyway. to anyone. okay i mean. EVERYBODY I KNOW. who are somewhat pissed annoyed or whatsoever.

im sorry. its okay if you dont wanna talk to me. yeah.

2007-12-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

omg. i hate myself.

wow im damn pro. cant even get past the fugging first stage man. what rubbish. last in my group. screw luh.

anyway. nevermind. 1 reason i didnt play well. i didnt wear my lucky charm mann. but i think even if i did i would have played like shit. cause. some woman. didnt allow me to eat breakfast. bitch.

anyway. i bowled like. at 5+ 1 mq to try for cotq december. 599. yeah. okay stop playing. dont needa be top qualifier man. screw. good thing i wore my charm.

ohwells. fkk. i saw her bitching today again. my god. how many times already luh. which is why. i dont wanna tell her stuff. she complain so much about how i keep ignoring her and not tell her stuff. DUH THIS IS THE BLOODY REASON WHY. my gosh. if she told his wife about my issues. come on. he's how close to that family. and he holds such a high status THERE. im gonna be blacklisted. and wow. thanks to my family member. WELL DONE. screw off bitch. i cant take it anymore.

2007-11-29T23:43:00.001+08:00

dont be sorry. i never really blamed you. im sorry for the fact that yeah. i told you right. anyway. i dont know. but just so you know. im always here. i dont find people annoying when they come ranting. cause. im bored to death. and im happy they trust me mann. its your choice. again. im sorry.

2007-11-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

to you.
i thought you said you didnt know. and to tell you when i find out. but turns out you knew all along.

to you.
i thought you said you didnt like her. why'd you have to say she's irritating. i wont hate you just cause you're okay with her.

to myself.
why on earth do i fall for what everyone says. my god. gullible or stupid. if im gullible. i wont be able to figure out stuff and everything. ah fuck i dont know. screw it.

2007-11-29T18:35:00.000+08:00

who said sorry couldnt solve issues.
you're not the only one who misses everything.
think i like being at cold war with people?
i just dont think we could go anywhere.
if you have a defensive tone.
EVERYTIME.
just a small comment could mean an insult.
my bad. i got C and D mixed up.

screw it.

2007-11-29T14:26:00.001+08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

2007-11-29T01:46:00.001+08:00

im gonna change my blog soon. till i find a nice new blogskin or take the time off to finally learn and make my own. i'll just blog here.

why cant i let go of things. omg. uncle richard says i never bowl well. cause im too sensitive. and i notice every small thing. he said if my opponent were to look sad i'll bother. especially if i know them. i bother too much. im sorry. i cant not bother.

2007-11-29T01:09:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh. im sorry. i think i tried too hard. man. okay sorry for pissing you off. again.

2007-11-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

ohwells. talked to darsh daryl and charlene till about 3+. haha. yeah. close to 4. darsh left at 2.30 to watch arsenil and fibreglass. HAHA. okay fine. arsenal and fabregas. uhm. yeah. nothing much. talked to lester online. and holy shit he's damn funny. and he thinks i only talked to him at aia cause i went to talk to lynal and out of courtesy i talked to him. retard. haha. and teasing him is damn fun. too bad he cant play stepladder ):

i just found out a while ago that shayna and steffi have to go for trials again. how dead am i. my gosh. i counted. the odds of me even making it to the next stage is like. OMGGG. and yeah. even if i do make it. they'll take about 6-10 girls i think. and yeah. please. i counted and no way im getting in. all the pro people ): nevermind. denise and darsh will make it in for sure. and so will nic goh. ohwells.

went to rafflestownclub today. haha. darylong asked me to go. and since im nice i did him a favor. i asked anthony to go and i said i'll confirm with him in the morning. then cause i slept close to 4. i overslept. i woke up at like. 1? haha. and i was supposed to meet him at... 1. HAHA. oops. and then i saw like. missed calls from him. turns out he was already there. thank god michelle was going and she was already on her way there. if not i'll die. anyway. sat upstairs and crapped for a while. then we went down to the alley. yup. ordered food then went to bowl. ahha. i liked anthonywee's new phone.

WE WERE BOWLING LIKE RETARDS. haha. you know we were like. doing all sorts of funny stuff. i swear anthony can do anything with his bowling ball man. righthandbackup righthandcrank lefthandbowling lefthandbackup. OMG. haha. and all sorts of funny things. only thing he cant do is spin. haha. anyway. bowled a 243 or something today. cant remember. haha. after bowling we were like oh shit. its freaking 30 bucks. omg. cause we didnt pay by games. by hour. yeah. then yeah. omg. paid like. 10 bucks worth of coins okay. anyway. waited with ant for our parents. his mum came first. then i waited for my mum. went down to the alley.

steven said the most ridiculous thing to me.
steven: " when is your form gonna drop? sunday? "
me: " what the heck? "
steven: " nevermind i shall try to get your handicap deducted. "
me: " what the.. 10 pins. so low already luh. last time 15 leh. "
steven: " 10 pins damn high leh "
me: " right. "

like my form isnt bad enough already. compare my scores now to the tournaments like. champion of the quarter june. HUH. damn crappy mann. heck. anyway. anthony is gonna try to qualify. yeah man (: friday.

im still deciding on whether to go for brent and trix's 16th and 18th birthday celebration thingy. they're damn rich luh. they booked garden villa D sentosa resort & spa. my goshhh. anyway. yeah. if i do go. im going out with clarence nick and cheryl before. they wanna watch stardust. ISNT THE SCREENING OVER ALREADY. nevermind. anyway. we can watch kingdom(: i wanna watch. all of us can. except AHEMcherylngAHEM. haha. she claims she can. whatever. ahha. and anthony gerald chartan and michelle wanna go to rtc to bowl again. cause as i said. anthony wants to try again. so yeah.

taugay lost her cleansing alcohol. cant believe it. i used like. 10 drops? its like. 99/100 unused? crappit.

my mum's killing me. i cant believe it. i seriously cant stand her. omg. heck. tolerate. 2 more years. and i cant stand the other loser in my house even more. the one who has weird spasm that is not natural. and makes all the weird noises. arsehole. whatever.

chill denise. i saw your post.

im damn bored. can someone kill me. please do. jiahui can i pay your sis to make me disappear. and make sure its not some magic trick. haha.

2007-11-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

went to mountfaber today to meet chartan and michhwang before heading to vivo. nothing that much that's interesting to blog about. so heck.

i seriously dont know whats going on now. i seriously suck luh. i cant comfort people. i cant do shit.

why on earth is she so mean. my god. isnt it obvious. and yet shes still talking to _&_ like omg. please lor. they're how freaking retarded and stupid. i hate them. they're freaking annoying.

anyway. plans tomorrow. i dont know if i should go. its so retarded. i asked anthony. he said he may go. but that's not the point. i mean seriously. its not who else is going. its i dont wanna see things get screwed up even more than it already is. i have a slight responsibility here you know. my god.

anyway. screw this shit. anyway. thanks denise chan for talking to me. and for the advice. i dont know why. but i really feel like going. though i know its gonna suck if i go.

cheer up gerald(:

bye people. i finally bought girlfriend's spongebob. (:

2007-11-26T21:07:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh. i really cant stand my life.

i cant stand her. her bullshit. everyday.

im sorry everyone. you know a loser. i swear im not really gonna talk to anyone. i wont talk like i used to anymore. cause. im irritating. yeah. im sorry im a sticky friend too. and if i neglected anyone. im always like that. when i make new fun friends im like. damn sticky to them or something. and yeah. okay sorry people.

bye.

2007-11-26T01:02:00.000+08:00

i told everyone. and everyone will one day admit. taugay has a screwed up attitude and she cant keep friendships. yay.

anyway. SORRY EVERYONE FOR MAKING SO MUCH NOISE IN THE ALLEY ):

takecare people. bye.

2007-11-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

ong's here

wooo tauuuu...i hate my brooo...knn bastard...me lar me lar everything also me ok..u have no fault...oh yea and whats my dad's prob wtf as if i wanna bowl 107

2007-11-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

SHOUTOUTS TO PEOPLE.

ANTHONYWEE, DENISECHAN, DARYLONG, GERALDTAN, DARSHINI, MICHELLEHWANG, CHARLENETAN in particular:

okay here anthony look. your name is here too. yours first. since you so kindly requested. like. listing out everyone and then tell me DONT HAVE ME. anyway. thanks. to you and everyone else man. for the damn fun times at AIA. i swear. this is like. the first time i actually socialised and talked to alot of people and went out during a bowling tournament. why? cause im a loner. anyway. thankyou guys. seriously. and for the nice fun talk at skypark. and eating meepok with sam and clifton. haha. with the dick and the nose and the choking. nevermind. anyway. yeah. i found new friends man. and i made closer friends. thanks to all of you (:

2007-11-24T21:12:00.000+08:00

sheesh. went to raffles to bowl today with a freaking swollen thumb.

my gosh. couldnt clear thumb today. i played a 14+ game. and also 2 233 games. and a 209 or something. yup. and one 18+ and a 161. yup. super screwed.

ohwells. earned 72 bucks in total. yup. after minusing my capital. wheee.

charlene tan is damn pro at raffles. gosh. anyway. we went to mf after that. to watch that proded woman bowl again.

grats denise. ONCE AGAIN. for winning graded A. HAHAHA. in your face man. you cant play for 3 years right? haha kidding. my gosh what do you not get top 3? you get top 3 for everything man. hardly get 3rd. ass.

wow. she deleted her post and smsed me saying " sorry. "

now i know how elaina felt the other time when she said YOU KNOW HOW BLOODY PISSING IT IS TO BE WRONGED AND BLOGGED ABOUT. i know i know. actually. i knew before. but this time. oh my gosh. when i saw the previous posts i didnt really think it was me. till this morning's one. its the last straw.

2007-11-24T13:50:00.001+08:00

FOR YOUR FUCKING INFORMATION.

NOTHING I WROTE ON MY FUCKING BLOG WAS TO YOU.

NEVER. never was i hinting anything to you.

and the lies hypocrites and deceits. isnt to you too. wtf is your issue.

you think everything is to you then so be it.

yes im swearing at you now.

and im so sure im turning all my friends against her.

i didnt say everybody is changing either.

get your fucking facts right.

2007-11-24T00:27:00.000+08:00

im so not in the fucking mood to blog now.
summary.

thanks gerald anthony michelle and chartan for the talk we had at sky park on pokey grass.

to her. fuck off bitch.
to the other her. fuck off too bitch.
to him. fuck off bastard.

hypocrites. lies. deceit. i cant believe this shit.

oh yeah. if anyone wants to know how i did for aia. i fucked up. how'd you feel if you dropped from 3rd to 8th. cause you started bowling 13 14 and all these fucked games that only ___ will play. shit ass. i cant believe it. and i paid fucking 255 for a bloody cert. so in total i paid 305 for a cert and a fucking umbrella. wow. congratulations. ongyingxin you're such an idiot.

2007-11-22T19:33:00.000+08:00

I FREAKING WASTED 20 BUCKS TODAY.
shit ass. no one cares anyway. wtf.
i came home and told my mum what happened. about my qualifying and all.
then she was like. i dont care. next time you dont slap your brother.
since when in my fucking day did i fucking slap that fucker.
wtf. then im like. I DIDNT DO SHIT. and she just kept scolding.
sorry ong. i cant go stayover.

anyway. at the alley. sorry for the attitude.
told you you all should have left me alone.
dont bother talking to this loser.

and why does no one believe me.
i called uncle richard to ask if he was going down tomorrow.
he asked questions and stuff.
and i asked if i could go down to get my span checked.
he said once again. dont go and use this as a distraction not to win.
i said i know and he kept going on. I DONT DO THAT OKAY.
if i did i wouldnt play my lousy 735 yesterday right.
not like i just realised my span was short today.

whatever. anyway. to everyone who asked and bothered.
thank you. alot. i really appreciate it.
thankyou darsh for asking if i was alright in the alley.
thankyou valerie for asking me if i was alright in the toilet.
thankyou ong for asking me to chill.
thankyou gerald for helping me collect my money and telling me to relax.
thankyou denise for the message that you sent me. and for coming over to talk to me after my game.

thank you people.

i hate my bowling. i hate that i lost my ability to flick the ball and rev more. i hate my footwork. i hate my swing. i hate my speed. i hate my scores. i hate my rotation. i hate my timing. i hate my lousy accuracy. i hate my inconsistency. i hate my lousy dont-know-line-bowl-by-instinct bowling. screw this. i hate my game.

registration-$15
2gradedmqs-$50
9secschmqs-$180
total-$245.

fuck. i so wasted so much money. i could have bought a bowling ball. i cant believe it. why is it at raffles i can qualify top with 659 for 3 games in 2 mqs. 629 scratch that is. and now im bowling what fuck? SCREW THIS SHIT.

2007-11-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16th NICK!! <3

oh my gosh gay friend. you're finally 16. haha. i cant believe it. i knew you for 4 years plus already. haha im glad you finally decided to talk to me in sec 2. and for the stupid retarded conversations that started last year and go on everyday. HAHA. my gosh. from HIGH PITCH VOICES to DIFFUSION OF KNOWLEDGE FROM BOOKS TO YOU BY HUGGING THEM. haha. omg. and you never fail to make me laugh man. haha. and the funky phrases. haha. like ENOUGH ERGH. and LIESSSSSS. hahaha. and the stupid trainings we had.

thank god there's another girl in the world called nicholas lim (: haha. and i'll never forget your reaction when you heard mika's song. after i let you hear it cause you didnt believe theres a guy with voice higher than jojo's. haha. WHEEEEEE. im writing this 2 hours in advance so i can post it at exactly 12mn. haha.

BYE BESTFRIEND!<3
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